"i remain sorta sick now that i know what is written in stone"

jeanne says, "do you ever really love? or just pretend?"

spent few daylight hours at home yesterday. shuffled around the southeastern bit of the state like i was tracing something. covering the bases of something, for something. even the bases were unclear. bought a handle-less teacup and saucer covered in entirety by a miniature town in dark, inky green, complete with many tiny trees, sparse clouds in the sky and ships in the harbor, all in high contrast. surely it's a simulacrum, but what perfection of what town is a limited edition piece from sweden trying to capture? perhaps if i could figure that out, it would help. maybe i need to be high. you think? like that catherine wheel song that goes, "it's how high you are and the time it takes to heal." perhaps that's the answer. went shopping for hours past the late afternoon into early evening. new clothes help, right? new sheets? those must help for sure. i'm going to cover my hair today in deep chocolate brown. change, it helps, right?

i guess i'm floating posted info this morning about the new jeremy enigk album coming out in october [!!!], tour, &tc. "burn" is a live version of the track from the forthcoming world waits, and it has that same slow, driving piano that characterized "shade and the black hat," but it builds up to nothing. no pleading, no immediacy, no "won't you stay tonight?"s. it's a slow, deep pain more like getting tattooed instead of whacked repeatedly with a baseball bat. you following?

just listen:

jeremy enigk new track
burn [live from forthcoming album]

i hope you enjoy it. it really kills.

now that makes it a little better, right?

these are the tracks from the united states of leland soundtrack i posted a whole ago. they make more sense to me now.

--->ballroom
--->set it on fire