life with a thermos
sarah and i had both been eyeing the same thermos at starbucks, and to our luck it went on sale, and we scooped them up! life with a thermos is so much better than life without a thermos. it promotes many good things like way-warmer beverages for like 6 hours, saving money, less waste, &tc. and if you get a nice thermos, it's not at all reminiscent of the matching lunchbox + thermos set from grade school where the thermos almost always leaked at least a little.
i'm moving to brooklyn in a little more than a month but maybe earlier. i hope to have my car up for sale sometime next week. i know what i'm selling and not selling of my furniture that will likely be too much for any new york apartment. unless it's a loft, but i've never really been a fan of them, as they kinda lack coziness. i'm scratching every little surface to uncover money. there are so many unknowns right now...so many little leaps of faith i have to make: faith in life, faith in the future, faith that life in the future just "works out." you may or may not know that i worry about a lot of things way in the future that are presently uncontrollable or may even never be of my control. i'm trying to connect strongly with the little leaps of faith; i'm trying to hold onto them steadfast. it's hard to verbalize my excitement, but i do try to dote upon it because it helps cancel out the anger that i feel lately as my other most predominant emotion. but that said, i feel better about myself and who i am, what i want to do with my life and how i want to live it...i feel better than in maybe three years but probably more. it's probably more years. it feels so wonderful to have the insight of 26 years old as opposed to 16 or 20 or even 22. ok it's a little cliche but life's like this train whizzing by you...and if there's something you wanna do, you better run after the train and pull yourself on...because we're really not young forever. in 10 years, old ladies [like the one yesterday who kept saying "no...that's a little too jeune fille for me" about clothes i showed her {really cracked me up}] won't be able to say "yes, you are young."
but at 36, i bet life with a thermos will STILL be good. and by then i hope to fill it with homemade soup!
i'm moving to brooklyn in a little more than a month but maybe earlier. i hope to have my car up for sale sometime next week. i know what i'm selling and not selling of my furniture that will likely be too much for any new york apartment. unless it's a loft, but i've never really been a fan of them, as they kinda lack coziness. i'm scratching every little surface to uncover money. there are so many unknowns right now...so many little leaps of faith i have to make: faith in life, faith in the future, faith that life in the future just "works out." you may or may not know that i worry about a lot of things way in the future that are presently uncontrollable or may even never be of my control. i'm trying to connect strongly with the little leaps of faith; i'm trying to hold onto them steadfast. it's hard to verbalize my excitement, but i do try to dote upon it because it helps cancel out the anger that i feel lately as my other most predominant emotion. but that said, i feel better about myself and who i am, what i want to do with my life and how i want to live it...i feel better than in maybe three years but probably more. it's probably more years. it feels so wonderful to have the insight of 26 years old as opposed to 16 or 20 or even 22. ok it's a little cliche but life's like this train whizzing by you...and if there's something you wanna do, you better run after the train and pull yourself on...because we're really not young forever. in 10 years, old ladies [like the one yesterday who kept saying "no...that's a little too jeune fille for me" about clothes i showed her {really cracked me up}] won't be able to say "yes, you are young."
but at 36, i bet life with a thermos will STILL be good. and by then i hope to fill it with homemade soup!
posted by margaret @ 10:38 AM
8 Comments:
At 22 February, 2007 11:08,
Anonymous said…
i dont know you, and have no idea how i even came across your blog, but i really really enjoy it.
we seem to be in similar situations
and motion/flux.
all the best.
wm
At 22 February, 2007 12:57,
margaret said…
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At 22 February, 2007 12:58,
margaret said…
thanks a lot. you're moving too?
it's nice to have someone to empathize...i'm a little alone in this right now.
m
At 22 February, 2007 16:20,
Anonymous said…
yes, i am moving to another city (not super far, but far enough away to be SOMEPLACE ELSE) by myself in the upcoming weeks.
you wrote some things on 06 and 15 feb that really resonated with me.
i think i stumbled across you via an mp3 blog? not sure. i really never read personal sites, but really have enjoyed reading yours.
At 22 February, 2007 21:23,
margaret said…
thanks...yeah, i used to write more about music so i am linked from some mp3 blogs.
where you moving to?
At 22 February, 2007 23:41,
Unknown said…
nowhere nearly as exciting or potentially/intrinsically daunting as nyc...
a move has been a long time coming, but a personal disater has changed it from wanting to get out of here (cleveland) to needing to get out of here to maintain general sanity and such.
"so many unknowns right now...so many little leaps of faith i have to make: faith in life, faith in the future, faith that life in the future just "works out." you may or may not know that i worry about a lot of things way in the future that are presently uncontrollable or may even never be of my control. i'm trying to connect strongly with the little leaps of faith; i'm trying to hold onto them steadfast. it's hard to verbalize my excitement, but i do try to dote upon it because it helps cancel out the anger that i feel lately as my other most predominant emotion. but that said, i feel better about myself and who i am, what i want to do with my life and how i want to live it.."
i do have faith in the FLUX.
faith in remaining in motion.
i do miss the times of stasis when things feel so out of control...
but you know, that thermos will always be fucking awesome.
At 23 February, 2007 10:26,
margaret said…
yeah...i guess you gotta just have faith in the flux. and you know, it does just make you feel alive, all the unknowns, all the excitement.
but i'm guessing if you're moving under duress, more or less, there's nothing exciting about that?
At 23 February, 2007 13:17,
Unknown said…
exciting still...
emerging to survey the rubble, then
new people new places, the wide-eyedness of reacting to a new environment.
i think that there are probably a finite amount of truly terrific things that can happen in certain places or situations. then the good things start becoming fewer and farther between. the then even the new good things arent as good as the old good things.
i think all the really really great things have run out for me here.
its time to see who we are and who we will be in these new places.
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