you meant everything.

i finally finished the purse, and it is night, so the photos are horrendous. it took so long to actually work up once i got the idea/pattern in my head that i take back ever wanting to have a crocheted handbag line. i did base this on an interweave crochet pattern of a purse that i did a few months ago [i posted pictures of it]...the shape kinda and the spike thing. i did this in cheapo sugar & cream yarn [yarn totalled less than $5 for sure] and i dropped down a hook size or two. i did this on an F...but i think if i could go back and do it again, i would drop it down to an E even [i think that original interweave pattern called for a G..? i think??], a trick i learned from a lady down at cityknits in detroit to make your work sturdier. for a purse, especially, ya know? what i didn't like about the original purse in the end was that it was too "stretchy," like if you put your cell phone, wallet, keys, &tc. in it, it got a little weighed down/stretched out. so if you drop down a couple hook sizes, it will make the whole situation way tighter, i.e., sturdier. yeah...i'd probably go down to an E to make it even sturdier. i'm considering making a baby version/companion to it. just to work it up. i want to make it long and skinny, but that's just not practical for me. i envision making a great yoga mat carrier/bag, but i don't practice yoga soo.... maybe i will make a wine bottle holder. aren't there restaurants in nyc that are byob? laugh. i kinda like the idea. i also love that i worked it up in sugar & cream cotton so it is totally washable. you can see that it's pretty big...use my flannel gnome pajamas as a size guide.

so i'm having a ryan adams phase, and no, i've never had one before. it's weird. i can't tell how i feel about it. it's not helping the "stare-at-the-wall-blankly" thing i have going on right now. i must be waiting for something. maybe it's the big heartbreak. ok. maybe it's the big moment when i get motivated. i lost something this weekend that was recently given to me, and when i realized this today, i had use all my uhm strength to hold back from crying about it. the time i believe is still to come. we drank wine in the movies yesterday, smuggling it in my thermos and a POM bottle. genius, eh?? laugh.

i should be the opposite of bored right now.