i've been cheating on slowdive

it's been ten years of "slowdive is my favorite band," and it was about time their reign would come to an end. the national muscled themselves in some time ago. i saw feist at town hall on tuesday. it was pretty weird to walk out of a show right into times square. this is where i live. thinking about movies in the park this summer and all the free shows. superchunk in little more than a week. found an armoire in the hallway the other day, and now i'm not living out of bins anymore. makes you feel like a real person. a real live-r-somewhere-r. ordering a bed this weekend. if only i had a window over which to hang curtains. someday. thinking about walking over the brooklyn bridge, pizza in dumbo and picnics. been working full-time hours at my part-time job, so i guess i now am a full-time reservationist and a part-time transcriptionist. applying today for a job that would allow me to quit both, just quit everything that generates too few dollars per hour/per line, in lieu of 9-5 new york worklife. got drunk on a free vodka hour at the "vibe music awards" bar directly across the street last night, then indulged in a fried chicken bedtime snack. i'm dating tom yum quite exclusively now that i found the superlative at thai 101 on myrtle nearby. i wish i could see tom everyday, but you know...it's difficult to visit daily. deleted phone numbers without prior memorization. plans for the weekend fitting together like puzzle pieces...the beach weather allowing, a bar with hot dogs, a bus ride to new jersey. and back. living in new york city is overwhelming, lonely and inspiring.